I think I owe many of you, specially @Reyhaneh_Nazary and @amirali_1506 an explanation about why I was insisting on us talking about this subject so much. Well, here it’s the story.
We go through lots of things in our lives. Most of days we feel frustrated, fed up and just overwhelmed. In hard moments of life, when we are under so much pressure, is when we turn in to a deadly weapon to hurt and destroy the ones we care for.
I have done it. I have acted like an absolute jerk. I have snapped at my mother and I have humiliated people and I have done many other bad things. I have and there is no running away from the ugly truth it holds.
And you know how I felt afterward?
Ashamed and guilty and regretful and just too unworthy of anything good in my life. I have regreted my nasty manners immediately.
I have humiliated a friend and I have felt so ashamed of it that whenever I bumped to her outside of school, I didn’t dare to look at her face.I would bow my head and stare at the ground. But she would keep her head up ignoring me completely. Like I didn’t even exist for her. I didn’t humiliate her, I just prooved to myself and her, how disgusting I am. This realization hit me so hard that I don’t wish it for even the worst people on this planet. though, I think they go through it, anyway.
That’s why I wanted us to talk about it. Cause noticing things and people you have in your life and valuing them prevents you from knowing and growing your dark, cruel, ugly part of your charecter. It will urge you to appreciate your family, health, the roof above your head, your life, every thing. It shows you that you never want to be the one who makes them sad or ashamed, you never want to be the cause of their tears or worse, their silence, you don’t want to lose them. It helps you improve your manners and feel good for being a good person. for being a person who helps and makes people laugh and grow and feel loved and respected. You don’t want to feel like a witch or a bastard.
We are always whining about how cruel this world is. But we don’t bother to change it ourselves. If you are waiting for some one else to step in, it will never happen. You should do it yourself and urge others to follow you.
You know how much saying a sentence containing 3 mere words like " I love you" to your loved ones and showing you care mean to them? An infinity.
I know it’s hard. I feel awkward and uneasy, too. But you must say it. Why swearing is much easier than saying nice things? Why expressing your feelings is so damn hard?!
You know how a compliment can prod some one to discover their talent and work as hard as hell to make it better?
I am a living proof. I put my first writing here, many people liked it but no one said a word about it except two people. They have commented that they have liked my text, that they have found it interesting and helpful and I can’t say how much those words meant to me. Go and read my first writing and compare it to the things that I write now. I have become much better. And I owe it to Mr. @Mashreghi and Mr. @M.HosSeiN. I can’t say how thankful I am. I even remeber the wierd words Mr. Mashreghi said clearly. He said:
" خیلی با احساس و با مغز نوشتی"
As it says: do simple and small things with great love.
So, I’m grateful for my lovley supportive family, for my health, for the shelter above my head, for the food I eat, for the small and limited things I own, for my talents and for all the people in my life that had made me laugh and feel respected, loved, worthy and capable. Also, I’m thankful for those who taught me to try to be a better person, to alter and feel good about who I am.
I appreciate every one of you and I wish that your hearts stay as great and kind as they are now.
Thank you. 
